So, I will start off by saying what everyone is waiting to hear: the Beta #, am I pregnant or what??
The answer: I still dont know :-/ My beta number was really low. 5.3 The doctor said the embryo could have implanted later than normal, which would cause the hCG numbers to double later. So, I need to go back again in 2 days. Wednesday's lucky number will be 10. If the number is 10 or higher, than the pregnancy can continue. If its not, I will have to discontinue all medication, wait for my period and also wait to find out if and when the IPs would like to try again :-(
The hardest part was the pregnancy tests. Starting from 4 days post transfer (4dp5dt), I have gotten positive-faint but still positive-home pregnancy tests (HPT). 6dp5dt was the darkest line, and then the next day was faint again, and every day after that. So I couldnt help but check what Google had to say about that. Unfortunately, Google implanted an idea into my head, that is still pretty hard to stop thinking about. Google said this was possibly a chemical pregnancy. Thats pretty much a miscarriage, just verrrry early on. Im thinking if I have to do this again, I am banning HPTs and Internet from my house. I think I would just rather wait it out for the blood test. This was the worst week ever!
Because of the time difference of where my IPs live, my agency is going to speak with them later this evening and then give me a call. We will probably do a conference call later this week. I know the parents have their heart set on a "year of the horse" baby, so I think we have one more chance. But it will be cutting things very close.
One thing I cant get off my mind though is the decision to transfer that embryo alone. The original plan was to transfer the frozen embryo and 1 fresh one. The fresh one stopped growing, so obviously they cant transfer that. Buy Im not exactly understanding why they would only transfer that one frozen embryo. It wasnt the greatest quality. They grade embryos, and the frozen embryo's grade was a 4cc. 4 just means that it was hatching, thats a good thing. aa would be the perfect embryo, and dd is not to great :-/ Heres what Google found for me:
Expansion Grade
1 Early Blastocyst: the blastocoel filling more than ½ the volume of the embryo, but not expansion in overall size compared to earlier stages.
2 Blastocyst: the blastocoel filling more than ½ the volume of the embryo, with slight expansion in overall size and notable thinning of the zona.
3 Full Blastocyst: a blastocoel filling more than 50% of the embryo volume and overall size fully enlarged with a very thin zona.
4 Hatching Blastocyst: The trophectoderm has started to herniate through the zona.
5 Fully Hatched Blastocyst: Free blastocyst fully removed from the zona.
Inner Cell Mass
A Tightly packed compacted cells.
B Large, loose cells
C No ICM distinguishable
D Cells of the inner cell mass appear degenerative
Trophectoderm Grade
A Many healthy cells forming a cohesive epithelium
B Few but healthy cells, large in size
C Poor, unevenly distributed cells. Many appear as few cells squeezed to the side
D Cells of the trophectoderm appear degenerative embryo surface.
So, the thing thats been stressing me out the most is, if the fresh embryo stopped growing, than why not just transfer two-not so great-frozen embryos. The way I understand it, it would be the doctors call. I dont know. :-( I just keep praying for that lucky 10!!
The rest of today and tomorrow is going to take for plus ever!! I was supposed to go to a little party tonight, with a couple friends, to celebrate Cinco de Mayo. But now Im not feeling up to it. Im not buying anymore pregnancy tests either. Im just going to put this little embryos life in God's hands. Only He can give life to this little embie!
Update on PIO shot.....ughhhhhhh hahahaha thats my update lol
**sigggghhh** forreal tho, they suck!!
My right side has 4 raised welts and 1 small black and blue, not to mention a small hard spot under my skin.
My left side has 2 raised welts and 2 small black and blues, but no small hard spots.
The welts itch like crazy...think poison ivy. The black and blues are sore, of course. So every time I scratch, I also cringe in pain. Every time I have a moment to sit down on the sofa, I warm my rice pack and massage my right side, to help the small hard spot go away.
I just want to also say how lucky I am to have the support of my agency! They are the best ever!! I called them up crying when I found out my beta number was only 5.3. They were super sweet and thoughtful. They made me promise not to drive until I calmed down. They also said if I cant calm down, or if I dont feel like driving, they could rent a hotel room for me to stay the night in. So that I could rest. They are amazing! I could never stay away from my kids like that, (unless I absolutely have to), but they are awesome to offer that!
Well, Im not sure how Im gonna keep my mind busy, and my fingers away from Google (Google is not my friend right now) for the next 36 hours. But I will stay focused on that lucky number 10!!!
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